He is slowly falling apart , I’m good with him so much so I was just at the hospital and I helped him him to the toilet, he is incontinant now with his bladder so I had to help him and put the nappie on him when he was done and put him to bed ,
I never imagined in my wildest dreams that that would ever be possible and now he is getting a bit more and more confused with his thoughts, I’m going ok with it but it’s a bit of a struggle for me but everything has changed over the past few months we have become close and that’s something that I have waited 55 years to happen , it’s so ironic that now for the first time I think he loves me
And unfortunately it’s right at the end
I have always looked up to the strong man he is but for some reason he is too scared to go , and I hate watching him disintegrate, it’s just not fair
But such is life
At least I think I finally win his heart
for who I am
So I’m doing ok.